Satisfied.

How does it feel to suspect and hate someone for so long that you can't even bear hearing their name? Specially when you used to love that person to pieces? Well, let me tell you, it feels like there is a hot burning ball of stress in your chest and there is nothing you can do to make it go away. It feels like you have to live with it, forever but actually that's not true. I know it's difficult, very difficult but talking things out really helps. Believe me, shouting at each other doesn't work, actually it makes everything worse. I know that because a few days ago, I had my moment of satisfaction. It feels good, but I guess sometimes satisfaction ain't enough, at least for the aggressive types who always want a revenge. That friend I lost meant the world to me, she was my best friend, the only person who could tell that something is wrong just by a glance. Well, now it's not as bad as it was a few days ago, and i am really happy about that but I know, it's never going to be the same.

Loving someone hurts, hurts like hell, specially when they are your friends whom you know will never stick to you forever. What hurts the most is that feeling you get when you regret every single word you said to the person who left you all alone not even realising how many pieces they have broken you into. But then again, that's life and we have to go on with it. Watching her leave was like the worst thing that had ever happened to me. How does it feel when the person you thought would be there with you through thick and thin suddenly walks that too without giving you any good reason? Hurts right? Well, I feel like that every time someone mentions her. It feels so bad to know that my best friend forever has no respect for me anymore. But i have to get over all of this and move on, try to find out that what's what. People all around seem to be fake, finding the swan the too difficult, but eventually everybody does and so will I. :D